the seedy life

so i called gayle yesterday to let her know that the family we stayed with in scotland is going to be in town this week. my call couldn't be connected as dialed. what the fuck. (sorry granny!) so then i called her at work. the voicemail at her extention was still her voice, so i left her a message (if she is even really still there). i thought i was sad about this whole deal with gayle, but i discovered yesterday when i was talking about it that i am really pissed off. mostly because i feel like i didn't really matter to her. i just want to know what the hell is going on inside her head. that's all. not too much to ask. i don't even know where she is.