last night, i did the hardest thing i've ever had to do. i told my mom that her dad died while she was on holidays. i never again want to see that much sadness come from words i say.

we love you grandpa
william james o'keefe
1920-2005

wish you were here (pink floyd)

we've been living the seedy life for a whole year. crazy.

i love it. cuz it's the same. we're the same. i love how in love we are. and how it's for always.

******seedy for life******

d,
jerk! i know you knew it would make me cry! i love you so much and can't wait for the seediness to continue. and also, how did you do that?!?!?

chronicles of life and death (good charlotte)

i know, i know. it's been like a month since we've posted anything. so, to the 2 people who read this blog... sorry, but nothing much has been going on.

me and my lovely cousin robyn went to see good charlotte on sunday, the 17th. it was her first concert ever!! she was so excited while we waited in line, yapping the whole time about nothing. she's so awesome. she got a bit tired during the opening band and i was worried she wasn't having a good time. i was sooooo wrong. when good charlotte was on, she was bouncin' and singin' and cheerin'... it was great!!

i had my interview today for the "youth project coordinator". i think it went ok. it was hard to prepare though. they already know what i do, so i wasn't sure what was going to go on. so basically, i didn't really prepare at all. i was asked to tell "my story", how and why chrissy is where she is today. and they also asked me explain how i do my job and what "gifts" i leave my clients with. blah, blah, blah... in the end, they told me that i need to do some work on being able to articulate what it is that i do and how i go about doing it. both pauline and eileen gave me huge compliments... they told me that i do "tremendous work" and that i need to look back over my past clients and give myself more credit for their successes, because without me, the change couldn't have happened. huge compliments...

tomorrow is our anniversary... one whole year... i know, crazy!!

anyways, see how boring things are??? maybe more fun and funniness soon... i hope.

*** one week till matt good ***

shower days (nofx)

today is laundry day. soon, me, d, and my little brother will be smelling much better. you're welcome.

i think i might have some gas. too many cherries. ouch. it hurts. so much for smelling better...

ode to my car (adam sandler)

the car wouldn't start again today. different problem though... i bet it would've started if it was raining... probably not.

found some info for walking myself skinny... it's a 6 week plan. starts tomorrow.

i'm boring so... see ya!!

san francisco (scott mckenzie , me first & the gimme gimmes)

lazy lazy lazy... i love lazy dayz!! no appointments, not really going anywhere, not much of anything. LOVE IT!!

so melanie finally had her very first birthday party last nite. first party, first cake, first anything. it was awesome!! she'll be 24 early in july, but out of town, so the party had to be last nite. F-U-N (spongebob says that "F is for FRIENDS that do stuff together, U is for YOU AND ME, N is for ANYWHERE AND ANYTIME AT ALL down here in the deep blue sea!")

update: car is fixed, job is ?????

oh, talked to lisa on her birthday on thursday... she was on fisherman's wharf in san francisco!! bitch!! tee hee...

girls, girls, girls (motley crue)

what about girls? well, let me tell ya!! first of all, mike will be having a baby girl in october. second, my cousin lisa is currently on a road trip to san francisco and i am so totally thrilled for her!! third, my friend melanie just got promoted and is so very happy about it and i am so very happy for her!!! (mel also just got a haircut and looks fabulous!!).

so YAY GIRLS!!

car update... it's in the shop right now getting tuned up and cleaned out and having the tires rotated and alligned and just getting some long overdue attention. i just hope that they can find the cause of the "rain" problem. since it's not rainy today it might be just a guess.

i've fallen a bit off of the wagon... i ate lots of crap this weekend. it's hard to start eating healthy again. but i decided yesterday that bread and it's buddies are no friends of mine. bye bye to most carbs!!

It's All Been Done (Barenaked Ladies)

I guess I had better write something since it is the SEEDY life (though C pretty much keeps you all up to date on everything). Let's see.....what's goin' on.....saw the new Batman.....oh, she already told you..... ok..... what else...... oh yeah, our car won't start and..... what?, she told you that too? Well...... has she told you that I love chicken?.... No?.... Well I do. And also....I love to skate. (pictures to follow....someday)

na na na na na na na na BATMAN!

again with the rain!! i love the rain and i also love driving in the rain, but that can't happen. why? CUZ THE CAR WON'T START!! and... and... batman is tonight. gotta figure something out. just gotta.

what would batman do if the batmobile didn't start. why he'd take the batwing of course. if only we had a seedywing...

I Gotta Pee (NoFX)

take that, nickelback! ha!!

finally, here is the picture i know at least one of you has been waiting for... don't know how well you'll be able to see it though, but trust me, the stream of pee is awesome!!

lift your head up high... (bloodhound gang)

aaaarrrrrrggggggg!!!

once again, it rained over night and once again, the car won't start. it is driving me crazy!! **how can it drive me crazy when it can't drive anywhere?** "well take it in and get it fixed." we would, except for one problem... $$$. we are working very hard to get back to even with everything but we're not quite there yet. i'd say one more month or so. until then, we just have to mind the forecast, i guess.

and the timing of it is always shitty... like this morning, i was up and ready to go to the gym. nothing kills motivation like a car that won't start.

so, again, i say aaaarrrrrrggggggg!!!

ps.
matthew good is coming to preform at kdays... i am so damn excited!!!

loser (beck)

so as it turns out, i am a winner. not the loser that some had pegged me as. you may be saying to yourself "yeah right!", but it's true. how am i a winner? well, let me tell you!! i won a double guest pass to the premiere of "Batman Begins". so HA!! no longer a weiner... i'm a winner.

breathe in (atmosphere)

resume: in
fingers: crossed
hopes: up

this girl is my idol!!

i'm too sexy (right said fred)

what's what? oh, this?

here i sit with a kleenex shoved in my nostril. i've got the bronchitis and the tonsilitis and a fever and a stupidly crazy runny nose. i feel very pretty right now.

smoke, baby (hawksley workman)

sometimes i wished that i smoked cuz then i wouldn't be left inside to wait for everyone to be done smoking and talking and laughing and enjoying the nice spring evening and chilling and visiting with not me.

all the small things (blink-182)

i love love

things i love... by seedy c

- stars

- blue and purple
- d
- pizza
- daisies
- j
- thunder and lightning
- skate shoes
- my "always there when i need them" friends
- matthew good
- cartoons
- mangoes
- the letter x
- pyjama sundays

40 oz. to freedom (sublime)

so, it turns out that $600 a month isn't enough for me to do the shit that having a paper route requires. so very much shit.

but on a happier note... d finished school and got his official bartending certificate!! yay d!! and the job hunt begins...

what should i do for some extra cash? no funny answers here either, please. much appreciated.

sorry for the lame post. it's been a tough week around here. j's doing ok. she's been making some tough decisions. i can't even imagine what it's like to be 21 and deciding what to do with your mom's ashes. it's hard to watch her go through this. she's a totally different girl.

the leaving song (a.f.i.)

j's mom died. the police came to tell her today. it's amazing to see so much strength come from someone so small.

it's my life (no doubt)

so, i made a call yesterday, and now, well soon, i shall officially have a paper route. "wow, sad." you might say. "f-you!" i say!! it's like 2 hours a day and $600 a month. and d and i made a plan yesterday... a 1 year plan... and for our plan to work, we need to save like crazy!! so there. laugh at me all you want, but we're going places, baby!! not to florida, though. maybe they can take "puppet chrissy"...