so sick. so very very sick... i don't remember ever feeling that awful. or throwing up that much.

at least it got me before vegas.

VEGAS!!!

glad to see i haven't changed... saying i'll do stuff and then not doing it. pictures, blogging, exercise... good thing it's almost the new year. i'm not making any resolutions out loud.

i hate finding out that i made a bad decision when i thought it was a great decision and if i just would have waited to make that decision, i could have money in my pocket and time on my hands.

totally going to get my iphone tomorrow.

looking for new music to love.

i love my new slippers.

totally feeling the christmas spirit.

putting up the lights today. going to start baking too.

pictures to follow.

so i now know of one reader. and i'm so happy! happy because someone is actually reading. happy because of who it is. happy just to be happy. birthday weekend in calgary. good company, not so good punch, amazing matt good show.going to get xmas lights this weekend hopefully. not going to put them up, i'm not crazy. there's a giant santa with some ugly reindeer down the street. never wanted to vandalize something so much in my life.

to write love on her arms...

sometimes i worry that i am boring and sometimes i feel so totally bored but i don't know what to do about it. so much sitting around. get up and get out? i know! but where? everything costs money. we're going to vegas in february so that's where all of our money goes right now. walked around whyte on the weekend and i totally loved that. spent very little. i'm also dreading winter. then there's no options really of what to do because it's so cold that i really don't want to go outside and start the car and scrape it off and wait for it to warm up and then go somewhere and get out of the car into the blistering cold... i just made myself sad.is it too early to make resolutions? usually i hate seeing or hearing anything christmassy until at least my birthday is over but this year is different... don't get me wrong, i'm still all about me on my birthday but i love that there are so many christmas things out and around. except for lights on houses... so too early.

i read this blog written by a girl in toronto, raymitheminx. i stumbled across it clicking on links from matthew good's website a long long long time ago. i don't know why she is so facinating to me. It's not that she does anything crazy amazing... she just seems so real. maybe that's what it is. it it feels like i know her. i know that i don't know her. i only know what she wants the world to know but it makes me want to know her. but that's how she writes. for like 5 years, i've read her blog... i hope she never stops.

a day off in the middle of the week... hair and laundry and cupcakes!

gorgeous november day...
ate a delicious fuss cupcake...went out and did some pre-christmas window shopping...
such a good day...

i got up too early today. but that's ok because it's friday. i love fridays. fridays mean jeans at work, an evening with lisa, people in great moods... i love all of those things. it's supposed to be windy and rainy and cold today but i don't even care. i also love thursdays. not quite as much as i love fridays but it's pretty close. it's the lead in to friday!!!

we saw 2 movies this week: inglorious basterds and district 9. both were great. during the end of inglorious basterds, my heart was pounding like i was the one feeding the film into the projector. i literally had to tell myself that it was just a movie. and district 9... i left feeling very sad. it totally got to me. so good.

and i've decided to stop not caring about me. again. but i've also decided that i'm not going to talk about it. i'm just going to do it. wait... does this count as talking about it??? shit...

no doubt was amazing.
our housewarming party was great. we woke up to a mess like a frat house after a kegger and i didn't even care.
and we leave for our road trip in 9 days. it finally feels like summer.

21st century breakdown

we went to the green day show on monday. we decided on saturday that it was ridiculous for us to not be going so thanks to kijiji, we got some pretty wicked seats!!! it was amazing... victoria was on the floor and saw some guy rip his shirt off all dramatic like when they came on stage. charmaine was there too and now has a black eye.when i took my sociology of death and dying class in university, i had to plan my own funeral. "good riddance" was to be playing to a beautiful montage of pictures of my life. but then it was everyone's grad song and it was even on an episode of er when a little boy was sick and eventually died. i was the originator, people. just wanted you all to know that.

darren is such a manly homeowner. he has a circular saw and a ratchet set and some screwdrivers and a toolbox to keep them in. i have a caulking gun and a lot of swiffer products. not so manly.

say what!!!

so i'm not too sure why i'm writing on here right now... bored and tired of looking at boxes that need unpacking but not having anywhere to unpack them. yeah, that's the ticket!!!

we kind of just forgot about the seedy life. we've kept living it, just stopped documenting it. and that's made me kind of sad. looking back on everything is kind of cool. have you noticed all of the "kind of" 's in this paragraph?

so let's review:

• plan for the future... check
• buy a house... check
• be healthy... check

and that's really all i've got for an update right now. there's too many pictures from the last year so let's just start fresh...

i went for a walk around our new neighborhood tonight. some of the nice shots: and the not so nice:i found the sketchy area... on the other side of the school. it's sketchy. but i don't even care. i love it here. our house already feels like home. our street is cute and quiet and amazing.

a-musing (maybe)

remember when we used to update this? those were the days.....

well chrissy is in toronto visiting gayle, who she hasn't seen in years... though on listening to them talk though you'd never know it's been as long as it has.

i'm a bartender now, and a darn good one i might add. i stepped down as bar manager because the business side of business holds no water for me. i'm not the man. i want to find my own footholds. I'm not closing the door on the possibilities, i do see them and know that they're there, and they'll be there for a long time yet.

we've both fallen back into reading again. chrissy's having a torrid love affair with the twilight series, of course the only vampire i care for is angel... i'm reading the electric kool-aid acid test by tom wolfe. it tells the story of the lsd movement in the early sixties. it was spearheaded by ken kesey (who wrote 'one flew over the cuckoos nest'), and he (kesey) is the central character in the book. what a crazy time to be alive the sixties would've been. that reminds me, watch 'across the universe' if you haven't already.

does everyone know that chrissy is a supervisor of success coaches? she'll be all modest and say 'part-time supervisor' but she's already full-time awesome. i don't know how she does it. she doesn't know how big an impact she really has, on everyone. people really look up to her. i know i do.

i guess that's all i have for now. maybe in another few months, after more stuff happens, someone will update again. maybe.

does anyone else think it's weird that when you go into a movie theatre, you just totally trust that the seat is clean and dry and free of gum and/or pee? it's dimly lit and i just plunk right down and get comfortable. there's no guarantee that the person who sat there last had a strong enough bladder to make it through to the end of the movie. why so trusting?!?!?!? it'll happen once that it's not a safe seat and only then will i remember to check the seat before i sit down and once i start checking i will never find another unsafe seat again.

more summer fun...me and this guy hung out today. no big deal... i just had to throw him knives and a flaming torch while he was riding a 9ft unicycle.

oh my god i love summer so much i can't stand how much i freaking love summer.what have i done since july started? well, i've gone to a backyard bbq, had 2 picnics, go-karted and bumberboated, and gone to the pitch and putt.d decided that we needed a pool so there is one on our balcony now.haven't gone in it yet cuz it hasn't been as hot out since we got it. we think we might have a pool party...oh, and i have a question... what does your daytimer say about you?

2 months without a post. not bad... just been busier with other things. but now, since it's a craptacularly blizzardy day, why not write something?d's in vancouver right now doing some kind of conference/training stuff. i'm so proud of him. i'm still not sure if he totally likes his job, but he keeps getting promotions so... who knows.i think i'll stay in my pyjamas all day and watch movies. yes. definitely yes.

watching the food network while it's so snowing isn't such a good idea. i want to go out and buy stuff to make EVERYTHING I SEE!!! seriously... french toast croissants with carmelized bananas for breakfast, pepper and sausage spaghetti for dinner... yum. i think i'll make some kind of spaghetti for dinner tonight. maybe with ground turkey and sundried tomatoes...

i haven't been sticking to the workout routine for the last couple of weeks. and i ate mega crappy this weekend. i can't see the difference but i can definitely feel it. i feel like blah.got my lip ring changed yesterday... half dome beads. teeny tiny and sit flush against my lip. very subtle.when we were in calgary last weekend, we lived it up like rock stars... suite hotel room, valet parking, crab cakes, room service...so there it is.

no matter how many times i see it, the last episode of friends always makes me cry. that one, and the one where monica proposes to chandler. i don't know why. oh, it's because i'm so lame.

turns out it was the memory card. so now we have 3 2GB cards. it was a deal i couldn't say no to. 6GB for like $43.

oh yeah... i got a new tattoo. it's wicked pretty. and it's not done yet. 4 hours and it's not done. i know!! and since our camera is no longer ill, maybe i'll get a picture of it...

d's dad's coming next weekend. eek!!!

our camera is broken and it makes me sad. i'm going to buy a new memory card today and see if that's the problem. if that doesn't work, i'll be sad and cry a little (and by a little, i mean a LOT)...

misaki is fine. swimming normally and eyes all big like they should be. phew.

lisa and i went to a yoga class today. i know. we're great.

so, our fish might die. after i cleaned the tank, i left him sitting in his cup like always so that the new water could get to room temperature. next time i looked, he was flopping around on the counter. then he flopped on the floor and i screamed and cried and darren picked him up and put him into the tank. now he's swimming funny and his eyes don't look as big as they should.